Leave My Head

I thought the skies were blue again
I thought the birds' songs were joyous
I thought the flowers were in bloom
I thought the air seemed cool

I thought it all
I thought of all the good thoughts
I thought it all
But it wasn't, none of it was

Lingering behind the corridors of my dreams
My twisted, ill-ridden dreams
Are the memories of you
Playfully taunting my broken self

Why do you tear me to pieces, love?
When I have loved you a million lifetimes
You still did not attend to my beckon
And even turned wholly away from me

In times we were alone, your fingers
Your lovely fingers
Galloped like ghostly horses across my back
Those cold, lifeless fingers

Leave me be then, love
For you have said with your own mouth
Spitting forth the songs of your heart
That I am nothing to you

Let me go then, wretched love
For you have nailed into my skin
Using hammers I trusted you with
A self-hate like no other

Leave my head, beautiful darling
My dearest, my lost love
I shall write of you and our love
Then think of you no more

For what good will there be
What wonderful thing will be begotten from this
What shall we use to inspire others like us
You give no answer, for there is no answer

As our hands once met before
As our lips touched for the first time
As our spirits became one
I beg of you to let me go

We may no longer be
We can no longer be
We must no longer be
Anything more than this

So leave my thoughts be
Let my dreams grow and thrive
Let my heart live again
And let yourself find life once again